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This is simple and straight. This is my blog. Don't like it. You can just shoo shoo away. I ain't gave you any invitation to come anyway.
Oh, another thing. My blog is very straightfoward. Since this is mine, then whatever comments of mine is what i think. So it's either you suck it up and accept the fact or just fuck off. I don't need any extra comments. Thankyou verymuch(:

baby , i do miss you . in fact a lot . it's been 11 days since we meet up already . moreover , my n level is starting very soon . and yet we're meet so less . and after that it'll be your ns soon . so we'll be meeting up super super little . and i know we rarely talk on the phone because when you reach home from work , you'll be too tired to talk already . then you want to give me a surprise to make me happy . but baby , this surprise , you yourself think . if it's me who did this to you , how will you feel ? to me , it's like you're trying to test me if got other guys come contact me , what will i do . and not a surprise at all . and you still can act as if some other guy . to say the truth , when you hang up after saying dont angry , i was thinking cannot be is your friend or is you . in the end , through your friend's phone you say you're some other guy . and you think i didn't recognise your voice ? how can i not recognise my boyf's voice ? i just didnt expect that you'll do this kind of things . what is this ? seriously , i'm not angry now . i just trying to think in your shoes , which is what you everytime tell me to do . and i really dont get what's the surprise about . and i dont see how this surprise will make me happy . i just want to know what this is about .


today finally finally saw my dear boyf . Almost forget how he look like -.- Miss him terribly much . But this kind of long-time-meet-one-time thing , i'm getting use to it . Well , worst of all , he's going NS soon . Sigh ...


apparently , the horoscope facts on zodiaczone of twitter is right . however , it only proves how dumb me , a leo , is . the love facts of a leo is true . well , since i took myself as an example , and thus sounds true . and yes , when i think about it clearly , leo in love life , are dumbasses . they seem to be hurt every single time easily . hmm ..


I won't lie .
You're not the best choice , you're not the one i wanted .
I didn't start out with any feelings for you .
But now , no matter what people say to tell me to let go , i wouldn't .
When there's better choices when we didn't even start , or even now , or the near future , i won't let go .
I don't regret , and i never had .
Every bit that i have for you , are all true .
I wouldn't let go or go away , till you do so first .
Cause , i want to be the one in tears .
The one that's left behind , hurts the most .
I don't want to see you hurt .
I'll do everything i can to keep , cherish what we have between us .
You forget , i'll remind you .
You're not there for me , i'll be there for you then .
You can't take care of me , i'll take care of you then .
(:
Why am i doing all these ?
I don't know .
All i know , is that ,
baby , i love you (:


last time meet up with boyf - 14 july . Believe it or not . Well , guess we're both busy , what can i do ? :/ guess i'll have to wait till prelims are over ?
I do miss him ..

I've not been very clear headed to answer those questions i was asked . Now i can . To tell the truth , i'm afraid . Well , no particular stuff . People around me have been telling me stop being silly , waiting for him . Well , i'm not waiting . I'm going with the flow . If he can't pei me , okay , i'll find something to entertain myself . If he doesn't reply me , okay , i'll wait for him to reply . If he doesn't text me for the whole day , i'll just text him then . If he can't go out with me , i'll just stay at home or go out with friends then . Mm .. I'm not angry , really . I'm just saying it this way , because i really don't mind . Why ? Cause i'm used to it . Since i'm used to it , then why should i be angry ? If i want to be angry , i should have been from the start . So , ever since that quarrel , i figures out that , actually i'm so used to these that it's like a part of my life . That quarrel wasn't because i'm angry with the above things . Is because i'm afraid . I'm paranoid , some people may say . But those who really knows me , will know why i'm this way . My feelings , mood , temper , thinkings , are all magnified . Unlike normal people do . It's not something i want anyway . I'll just have to control it , stick with it . I know clearly of the consequences if it relapse . That's why , from the starting i said clearly to you . Seems like you've forgotten . If you remember now , and you're starting to regret , and want to leave , it's okay . I won't blame you (: another thing . I'm afraid . Because ? I don't want history to repeat . You know what happened too . Not that i don't trust you . Is that i'm afraid that such things will happened . Who knows ? There's so many things that humans can't do . I'm nothing , just a human , so what you expect ?


hell dead blog of mine . It's been almost a month since i posted . And guess what ? Hell's stared . I'm currently having my prelims . Damn .. I really need a new phone . The songs playing through my phone are muffle . And the keypad is really small . My fingers do type on them comfortably . Well , i'm trying to find excuses to get a new phone :/

anyway , things happened quite a lot , and yes , within a month . Mostly bad things though . And yes , i don't regret and don't really care a bit .


Thanks for tagging in my blog . But please leave a actual website of yours for me to view alright ? Erm , the links are just , i don't know ? They're advertisement webs . So appreciate much , thankyou (:


i'm not asleep yet and yeap , i've no idea what to do :/ baby boyf's asleep . And yeap , expected . He told me he's been working and he ended work unusually late . How extraordinary isit huh ? If that's what he expect me to believe , erm .. Well , i'll believe then . Just don't make me find out of know that it's all a lie (: anyway , meeting up with him this wednesday . Can't help but feel happy . Well , the people around me knows that we're the most unique couple ever . A couple who meet RARELY . Mm .. Kinda gettin' use to it though .

something random :
i've been watching shows lately . Well , i've watched finish vampire diaries season 1 and 2 . Currently watching 90210 season 1 . Well , haven't really started for long . Hope mom doesn't get all sensitive when i watch that show . Well , you guys know . All the american lifestyle thing :D

i'm getting lots of memory retrack thinkings . No idea why . Seems like i'm being sentimental lately . Am i getting old ? O.O god ... Anyway , it just kind of freak me out a little

today :
went back to school and did nothing particularly . Then went for lunch at west coast mac . No diff from not eating though :D then went to yuxin house with rachel . Walked pass this 3 guys who were sitting under the void deck on a single file bench , staring into space which make them look like dork . And yes , i wanted to slap their head to make them feel awake . Well , they'll thank me (: then , Sang some songs , watched videos and her damn sofa was hypnotizing me to sleep . And yeah , it almost succeeded . And i swear the moment i left the sofa , i felt awake . Freaky ....

twitter :
Zodiac zone is kinda true . Well , can't deny . I believe in horoscope / astrology . Well , more of i like astrology , psychology , mythology , physiology all those weird weird stuff to most people . Guess i'm just as weird anyway . To me , they're fantastic . There's just so many questions that's logical yet , can't really be solved . Well , i like those . TEEHEE ! Anyway , yeah , actually leo's kinda predictable horoscope ain't it ? The name of it tells you all . Woots !
okay , i'm mad -.-


it's been so long since i've posted on my blog . Mmm ... Well , not gonna tell much about what happened for the past few days . Shall talk about today . Well .. Kinda made some lookout on horoscope . These are some stuffs i saw on twitter :


girlfy have been asking me would you beat your child in the future ? She's been talking about it for 2 days or so . Lols ! Not sure why she ask anyway . Still , well . My comments are :
* touch wood * if i ever have children , which i don't want , i wouldn't beat them . I don't think that by beating your children they'll listen to you . Well , my children obviously would have my genes . And according to me myself , i hate being beaten ( okay , stating the obvious . Who loves being beaten ? -.- ). I can't stand my mom keep whacking me . I'll keep having the thinking of leaving home . However , i can't deny that i'd listen to my mom when she beats or cane me . Cause i know the consequences if i still don't want to listen . Yeah , so it works luhs . But discouraged , still :/ i mean you whack your own child , yes , is for their own good . Still , when you see them in pain from your caning , your heart would hurt right ? So , why whack ? Whacking isn't the only solution in teaching your children right ? Lols . I sound as if i'm reprimanding my parents for whacking me when i was young . Hahahahs ! But i wonder if my husband , which i don't think i need one , will whack my children , which i definitely don't want , in the future or not , though i know clearly that most probably wouldn't happen . Lols !


baby's coming home today . Yay ! Hope he'll reach quickly ): i miss that douchebag ):

decided to use a examination pad as my diary . Too lazy and wasteful to get a new book . Well , i'll be spamming stuffs in there . Hahahs :D

tomorrow have to go school . Don't even feel like going . I've only dnt tomorrow :/ don't like D: so ... 本小姐决定 , tomorrow don't go school . Lols !!


Been watching p.s i love you the whole day today , not knowing what to do . Finally watch finish all the episodes . It's so relative . Okay , don't want talk about that . Hmm ... Rot at home , growing mushrooms on my head , dead bored . No idea how can i describe myself more. Well , it's more of i don't know how to describe how i really feel now . Whichever it is , i'm okay (:


你一直说的那个公园已经拆了
还记得荡著秋千日子就飞起来
漫漫的下午阳光都在脸上撒野
你那傻气 我真是想念

那时候小小的你还没学会叹气
谁又会想到他们现在喊我女王
你哈哈笑的样子倒是一点没变
时间走了 谁还在等呢

这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

那条路走呀走呀走呀总要回家
两只手握著晃呀晃呀舍不得放
你不知道吧后来后来我都在想
跟你走吧 管它去哪呀

这杯咖啡忘了加糖
真不是我那麼伤感
世界太复杂 你说单纯很难
我当然都明白

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

可是呀只有你曾陪我在最初的地方
只有你才能了解我要的梦从来不大
我们没有在一起至少还像情侣一样
我痛的疯的伤的在你面前哭得最惨

我知道你也不能带我回到那个地方
你说你现在很好而且喜欢回忆很长
我们没有在一起至少还像家人一样
总是远远关心远远分享

我们没有在一起至少还像朋友一样
你远远的关心 其实更长


Happening day . Woke up early for school . Went home , had a short nap . Woke up and it's still morning . WTF . Today just felt so long .. Had a great day . But now that i'm in my room alone , i feel shag ? I don't know how to describe this feeling .. D:


can't sleep . So , decided to post . Well , was using twitter just now . One of the things i noticed that people do on twitter is posting facts of life , ownself , relationships , friendships , logics and many other more . Since i've nothing better to do , guess i'll post facts about myself .

1. I'm heavy . No joke .
2. I despise myself .
3. I hate the female counsellor in school .
4. I don't like the juniors in my school , mostly .
5. I hate cho peiyu and i still want to whack her , but i won't . Because i'll keep my promise .
6. I laugh at almost everything .
7. I feel sorry towards almost everybody .
8. I haven't start to regret ever since i'm sec 1 .
9. I hate people who lie to me .
10. I'm a rush person , because of the way i talk . But i'm actually fucking rational .
11. I rather people say i'm ah lian than a wimp like how i am when i was small .
12. People can't control me .
13. I need money -.-
14. I get too much disappointments .
15. I need to go on a serious diet .

okay , i seem to be saying more craps than facts -.-

actual fact :
i'm missing baby now .. )):


There's too many people that i miss .. Primary schoolmates , past tuition mates , friends that i know outside . Well , they gave me too many memories . But i want to let a particular person know :


To kill my boredom i went to google translate and find different languages of " I love you " .








Boyf's going to malaysia tomorrow , till monday ! Uh ?! That ass's leaving me in Singapore with boredom D: Hope he'll be back early .


People , for once and for all . Me and adat = nothing . We're over , over and OVER . So please stop asking whether i'm still with him or whatever shit . And stop telling me things relating about him , because i don't give a bloody damn . He die his problem . He together with who who who , fuck it , i don't care . He's a past tense to me . I've gotten over it , people , get over it too , thanks .


Boyf's going to malaysia on thursday to next monday :/ Well , hope he'll be careful . Baby , please ! If can , please don't ride bike :/


posting lesser and lesser lately , pfft .. don't know whether to day myself lazy or what :/ boyf's telling me to post . LOL . That ass . Finally during the holiday i did saw him a few times . Hmm ... Well , anyway , today i'm suppose to report to school at 7.30 for extended curriculum . But ended up being in school at 8.30 . Bus waiting disaster today . Morning and after school - waited for an hour for 176 . Damn it . Can't they just " supply " more 176s ? D: Hope i can be late and yet marked as not late tomorrow . Hahahas ! :D Hmm :/ Today's kinda weird . Didn't slack with girlfs - Serene and Michelle much today . In fact , more like don't have ? Well , they end earlier than me . I ended at 5.30 , people , it's fun but tiring -.- Hmm ... Still have lesson till don't know when . Hope it doesn't stand my whole holiday D:



shit . I have school tomorrow and i'm suppose to report to school by 7.30 . Wtf ! Imma lazy pig lehs , how can ask a lazy pig to go to school during school holidays in the morning ?! D:


明明很爱她，却说没有。明明很担心，却当做什么都没事。明明很在乎，却说一点都不关你的事。明明不是自己心里的话，却一直否认。为什么要这样？她就在你身边，你一伸出你的手，就可以握到她。你开心，伤心，生气，她都知道。她也都想在你身边。可是你却每一次都把她推开，狠狠的推开。但是有时却对她很好。不管你有没有跟她说话，不管你有没有在关心她，无论什么，只要她能在你身边，她就很开心了。那么单纯得想法，很难吗？让她心痛，就是你想要的吗？

love is just that difficult . If i can't even solve a math problem sum , what makes me think that i can solve this sum ? Well , seems like nothing is easy in this world huh ? Why must a person get hurt so badly ? Pain ? It's more than pain ..
幸福…有那么难吗？

Labels: mm ... I'm not implying on myself :D

morning morning everyone :D yeah , another blog posting in a early morning . Currently doing my daily weekday routine . Standing at the bus stop waiting for the freaking slow bus while listening to my music . Now playing : avril lavigne - not enough . Love her new album song :D and of course , i'm having my flu and breaking cold sweat . Every morning it's the same thing -.- if only things would change . If only there's sudden surprises happening , example - school suddenly explode and yay ! I don't have to go school till it's renovations are done or a temporary school is found . Hehehehs . Evil :D ( damn ! There's this fly that keeps flying around my legs ! Eewww ! D: ) i got no idea why the bus's not here yet :/ it's kinda irritating me . Cause this means that the bus have a lot of people = i can't get on the bus = i'll be late -.-


kinda talked about 2 person . Well , i use to be very close with both of them . Things changed and well , perspective changes too . Both of them , i understand them all in and out . I just know them too well . Once before , because of the two of them , i didn't heed any advice . I just believe in them too much . Talk about disappointment :/ once , to me , no matter what other people say , even if 99% of it are the truth , i still believed that they'll change for the better . Guess i was wrong huh ? They're always saying how much they're indifferent from what people say about them and how much they want people to understand how they're really like . At times , they even tell me that " whatever luhs. People like to say what , then say what lohs " . At that point of time i'd tell them to prove the people wrong . They said they will . And now , they're only bad to worst . Tried helping , warning , advicing and everything . Still , they get worst . All the believing of they-will-change thinking , all " puft ! " , gone . Disappointment is all i feel towards them . Life is theirs . Up to them then :/ i can only say : all the best . Stop making yourself look so cheap , useless and pathetic . You ought to be more worthful


back in singapore at 4 plus pm . And hell yes i got to say :
I MISS MY TWO SI CHARBOR - MICHELLE , SERENE !
I MISS MY ASSHOLE BABY TOO !
This 3 freaking people make me miss them a lot D:
gonna see my two girlfs soon ! TOMORROW ! As for boyfy ? Hmm .. Soon ? Not sure though :/ Well , tomorrow's his last day of work . Hope i'll see him soon . The last time i saw him was ... 4 may ? And now it's like 22 may already . Well .. Oh ! Now i'm on my bed ( okay , who cares !? ) . Don't wanna go to school tomorrow D: still , gonna have to ._. I hate all these school stuffs . I bet school's life would be easier if there's not such thing as tests or exams :/ not even qualifications , diplomas , uni cerfiticates and all those stessful
got-to-get stuffs . Without all those , people , i think , world would at least be better . Pfft ... That's impossible though .


currently in malaysia. Grandpapa birthday :D HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!!!! :D He's one freaking cute guy! <3


Posted on my another "tumblr" blog :D


early in the morning, eyes closing, face look damn drag, and i'm still going to school. Can't possibly be telling mom that i don't feel like going to school. She'll NEVER EVER allow -.- i wonder if baby will allow or not. Hehehehes :D anyway, on the way to school now. And yeap, early in the morning i'm blogging already. Not bad nuhs. Make me open up my brain - warm up. CRAPPY ME:D slept late yesterday, well, for me it's kinda late? Hahahahas. Was making the new "tumblr" blog :D turns out not bad? (:


Okay, decided. I think i'll open another blog to post all my photos. I mean i'm too dumb to open tumblr. So i'll just use blog. Tumblr's too complicated for me my dears :D I'll just leave the link same at the icon same as the tagboard. When i post photos, i'll just tell by posting here. Do give comments there:D











June holiday's around the corner and yeap, i've no plans at all. I only know :
30th may ~ 3rd june - math remedial
ever saturday - math tuition
5th june - first month but dk what to do D:
Maybe - serene maybe open chalet?
Maybe - going back to malaysia
Confirm - studying and revising
These are all the plans only D: no idea what to do. Shit. Lets's rot







I want eat this frozen yogurt again. Ate it at Nex mall at serangoon. Freaking nice! :D <3 sudden craves !


Went out today with Serene and Kesh to USS. They have a job interview. Actually i wanted to go for the job interview. But mom and boyf is objective about it. Pfft... Nevermind then. I was thinking to go for that job to gain experience and get a pay? But as for i myself, when i hear how the job is, i wanted to try it out. Waitress. The timing for it is not bad. Pay is not bad. It's kinda free too. But i think they wouldn't want to hire me too. Cause i'm only available for june holiday 5th june onwards :/ well, kinda disappointed. Oh! Gaobin was the one to introduced it. hahhas. The place is damn nice and cool. And i've a feeling that i'll love working there. Still, well whatever :/


I fell in love with another taiwan drama series ^^ P.s I Love You :D Damn nice <3


today i've stayed at home the whole day, without complaining at all. No idea why. Then watch this show call p.s i love you or something. Not sure of the English title of it. In any case, i watch the drama show of it the whole. Though, still haven't finish watching. But i think i'll just continue it the tomorrow? (: Tomorrow have games day. Totally not entu about it. I'm not an active kind of person. Yeah, so in fact, i don't even want to attend it. Pfft.. Oh! And i have a feeling that, tomorrow will be fun in any case. And i'm not saying about the games day event(: look forward to it.


Don't try to mess with me. Really(: I've warned you mm.. more than.. 5 times? And yet you want to step on my tail. Don't act all big with me. I don't care and bother who you have behind your back. Don't act all innocent with me too. Cause, i know you too well. Don't act as though you know me well or know anything at all. Cause, i ain't know a shit. Seriously, you don't know me well. Like i told you before, don't trust me. And yet you did, who to blame? (: Too bad then. For the things you've did, you'll pay a price for it. Don't worry, it won't be too long. Just anticipate _|_





I don't know. I'm feeling that there's a problem okay? There's this big problem. You're having your stuffs and i'm having mine. Then what about the time that we could spend together? Okay, forget about the meetups. Talk about issues. You seem to be hiding stuffs. Lots of stuffs. Stuffs that just seem not good for me. I'm way more able to accept things than you do, alright? Just talk about anything with me. I don't like being lied to or hidden from facts that i'm suppose to know. We're not getting anyway if we continue this way, alright? To tell the truth, i feel insecure now. You make me think that you're just another him. Hot and cold towards me while you're telling me you love me. Could you please put yourself in my shoes? Friends are important. Indeed. My friends are obviously freaking important to me. Still, relationship is just as important. You can meet up with your friends, yes of course. When i want to meet up with you, you're full of excuses and reasons. I know you have work and you're tired. Since you're tired, how could you still meet up with your friends? And why isit that when you're free, you can't meet me and the reasons are all unreasonable? To tell the truth, I'm starting to feel that i'm not as important as i think i am to you. That thing i swear to do, you seem less concerned about it. Is that i'm going to get from you?


Had a tough day today. Was trying to figure out how am i suppose to pass my day. Got all my results back and they suck totally. Not only that, but the date - 13 may. Well, it's not about the movie though. Personal stuffs. Well, that's just ain't a good date for me though. And moreover, i'm having a irritating issue now. Someone stepped on my tail. Thanks uh. Watch your mouth. Oh! By the way, please, cut the acts. And stop trying to think i'm some ignorant bitch. Please, i know way more than you expect.


@ passer-by : First thing - like i said, be mature and write down your name if you got the guts.


should have gone to the english enrichment programme yesterday. It was great. To tell the truth, i love it :D


pfft.. Fucking hate today. Don't like a bit of it :/ don't wanna explain why. But just don't like. Lucky she don't have come school. Otherwise i confirm vent my anger at her. She lucky -.-
It's summer in Singapore. God... It's freaking hot! But guess what? I didn't on air-con, instead i on fan-.- lols! Not i pathetic, is don't want. Hahahahs

when can go out with boyf:/ the last time i saw him was... 4th may? He still can tell me he next 2 weeks got work cannot meet me. Wtf. Aiyah... Dulan luhs-.- lucky got dear girlfs D: pfft...

i really hate today, like a seriously! D:< pfft!


okay, i'll just roughly type what i did today. Kinda lazy nowadays. Hehehes:D

morning : woke up and went to school for my dnt exam. Paper ended at 9.30 and i can go already. Just that i don't want. Waited for serene's lesson to end. Texted with baby. He today got work. Pfft. Hope he'll have a great day. Got a feeling he'll be damn tired D:

Afternoon : went to batok with serene and met up with ken and eng liang. I got no idea what's wrong with eng liang but he's fucking cute and funny today. Hahahahs!! He's like some retarded! Then went to serene's house and watched glee with her. Then ate at her house. She say must eat cause otherwise the mother will scold her. Bo bian i eat. And the food's damn nice! Lols!

Night : 7 near 8 then reach home. Went to bath and on com. Then eat dinner cause my mom's scolding me for eating dinner. And dang, i'm eating again -.- wtf. Then use computer. Then move the music to my phone and edit the names. Blah blah. Then baby work over! Yay! Then he say he damn tired ( i was right. Wahahah. ) but he haven't eat dinner D: wtf! Eat something luhs! Later gastric how? Ass! Told baby to go bath and eat something. Told him i missed him too, like a serious. I miss him ): well, wait see when can go meet him nohs:/

yeap, that's what roughly happened today. Kinda boring uh? Hahahahs





The fact is that, i need someone who can really be there for me. Someone who i can tell only truth and that person will keep it a secret. Someone who i can say everything that's in my heart and cry but that person will be there for me. Such a person is so difficult to find. If such people exist, i guess no one will be in sorrows now, ain't it? (:


RAWR! <3


to my dearest baby : michelle and serene <3








specially for you(:


I've blown every bit of you from my mind already. I've seen the last of you. You'll never be on my mind anymore. To me, you'll just be a friend. To you, i may be in your hated list. Well, it's okay(: cause it doesn't matter anymore. You're always away from my life already.


Indeed you're still young. But doesn't mean your thinking have to be so immature. You fucking make no senses in your own life. You fucked up your own life and still, you're always blaming and complaining. What for? HSA letter come only, you're there telling almost everybody that you have to pay for the fine. Then keep saying you no money or what so ever. Miss, no money still can go out everytime. Oh! I know why. Cause is your boyf pay or give you money? Isn't it? Everything that you do, i can't seem to say that it's correct. No, wrong, is none of the things you do is correct. You could have chosen not to do this, but still, you want to. Because very saksak. Fuck your life seriously. At the least, everybody will know a limit to what they do. I don't know what the fuck you're think seriously. Want a relationship? Grow up first please. You don't know too much things. Seriously. Fucking change your attitude. I'm still waiting for the day you get whacked. Or should i start first? Miss, not that i want to hear stuffs about you. But you're just too famous too for bad stuffs that i can hear it everywhere i go. Fucking no reputation. GG luhs your life.


woke up late today. So didn't went to tuition. Surprisingly, mummy didn't scold me. Then bathed and went out with daddy and mummy to sim lim square ; go fix my sis's laptop. Like finally?! Finally she won't be using my laptop! Yes!!!! Then walked around. Went to korean shop that was near there. Blah blah blah. The whole day's main point is not this. Is my dad's van, that cute van. For some reason, after our dinner, we walked to the carpark where my dad had parked at, which is opposite the mall. When we got in the van, for some reson, daddy can't start the engine. The van just wouldn't start it's engine. After checking, it was the van's battery. The battery no more batt D: no choice, mummy, my sis and me had to push the van while daddy tries to drive it. It's fucking embarrassing but fun at the same time. After that many things happen. I'm too lazy to tpe. Lols. Conclusion : The van's brought to maintanence. And we're home already.


hmm... It's fun today. But for some reason, i have no mood now:/ somemore he don't have reply my msges. Pfft.. I'll just have to entertain myself then.. D:


today is freaking tiring but fun!! Mm.. After my science exam, went home. Bathed and make up and i'm off to batok to find serene girlf! Happy birthday dearest dear!! :D went to westmall walk one round go clementi. Okay. The main fun part was clementi actually. Hahahs. Walked around. Serene and elaine bought new shoes. Aww... Fuggling enviness D: i wanna shop too D: bobian! Broke nehs! D: SAD! Hahahs! Then when to citybite's ljs and eat. Ken and ivan went to buy cake as surprise my serene had suspecting something was wrong long ago. Fucking smart girl! :D then played with the cake. Hehehehs. Kissed serene on the lips! :O holy mama! 5 sec plus??? :O first time neh! Michelle only on the cheek sial! Hahaahs! I love my girlf dearly, no joke!~ then finally around 9 took cab to downtown chalet. Michelle's chalet. Wahahaha! Happy birthday too my dear girl!!! :DD love you!!! She was damn busy. Run here run there. She keep almost fall down. Worried for her. That girl hoh, ahdoi.. Then we had chats and laughters. Happy die! I wish there'll be a next time. What am i talking?! Of course there'll be! :D 12.30 daddy came to fetch me and chong. Send chong home first. Finally i reached home!!! :DDD then showered and ate. Daddy bought nasi lemak for me. Hahahs. Wah.. Main point : super fattening! Nasi lemak for supper! You kidding me?! Still, i ate it. Lols! Then went in to room. Was msging minghao. That ass! I don't care. I'll make him go out with my girlfs/ friends one day. Wahahahahs. Most importantly, i'll make him see my girlfs:DD eheheh! You better come! :D lols! Then talked on the phone with him. Just hung up. Talked a lot of weird stuffs. You'll have no idea what we talked about. It's too weird to be guessed. Hahahahs!!! He go shower now. Wait he come out text me then see how. If he's gonna call me then i stay awake. If not i'll go sleep lohs. Hahahs:DDD


was talking with a primary school friend on fb just now. About random stuffs. She damn cute please. Everytime chat with me is always chat about relationship stuff:D she asked me what do i look for in a ideal boyf. I tell her, there are stuffs to look for luhs. But now particular ideal guy that i'm looking for :/ as long as got some aspect that i hope for can liao. She say i very troublesome. Hahahahs! Since she asked me this question i shall type it here. Cause that's the longest question she asked me. Fucking cute girl :D
okay, here it goes :
1. Cute, handsome or hot (woohoo)?
cute luhs! :D
2. Long or short hair?
mmm.. Not too long, not too short? WTF
3. Tall or short?
min. Cannot shorter than me. Max. I wear heels also taller than me.
4. Fit or thin (fat also can :D)?
average luhs!
5. Tattoos??
erm... Don't too much? But i don't mind luhs.
6. Piercings nehs?
no gay gay piercings please -.-
7. Ogay ogay. Then the way he wear?
of course must fit with the trend luhs. I don't want go out with some weird uncle!
8. mmm.. Charactor?? I know you like ahbeng guys!! Haha!
eheheh! What ahbeng?! I only don't like those who keeps studying and never create trouble before de guys. I cannot stand those kind of guys-.- mmm... Charactor? Friendly, cheerful, fillal, kind, helpful, know what he's doing.
9. Woo~ then what you hope he'll do?
wth! The answer to this question very long lehs ( her : nehmind! Just answer me you biatch! :D ) wah! Okay! You heng i now very free, can entertain you. Hahahs!
okay. Mmm... I hope my boyf will :
1) don't control me
2) still let me have the freedom to be with my girlfs
3) understanding towards me
4) tolerant towards me
5) good with my girlfs
6) always there for me
7) tell me what he's thinking
8) go out with me and my girlfs at times
9) don't get all sensitive when i'm with guys. As in you also know me. I from primary school always mix with guys better de mahs. ( durh?! In fact they're scared of you please :@ ) F-U ! :D
10) trust me
11) this is ridiculous but i hope it'll happen - wherever i want go, he'll bring me there. Wherever i am, he'll come and looks for me when i need him (you're fucking demanding) eh what! Like i said for #11 is hope only. Eheheh! Hope luhs sial! :DD
yah luhs. Roughly like that lohs :/ (like that call roughly?! This is demanding man~) that's why i say i not good girlf. So don't like me best. Wah! If got any guy like me then can fulfill all the above. I think i don't think also say yes luhs. As in the i hope part. Hahahs!

yeapyeap. So this is one of the thing she and i will always talk about. I miss her D: hahahs! Next time if me and her talk again. It'll be the same thing again, i think? Hahahhs! I'll just tell her come my blog and see the answer for herself. Hahahhas! :D


Today's mommy's birthday!

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i can't promise that i'll listen to you all the time. I can't promise that i'll be like how you wish i can be. I can't promise that i'lll always be able to cheer you up when you're sad. I can't promise that i'll be like other girls who's able to be so good to their boyf. I can't promise that i'll do a good job. Still, i hope we'll work out. If it's another tragic i think i really can go bang wall die sua-.-

so that chance?((: Hmm.. I like being indirect to people. To that someone, if you get what i mean, then good for you. If you don't, shh... Then we'll forget about it(: i just thought of this the whole day. And this is the answer i've came out with(: remember that day you asked me and i said idk? Well, this is the answer now:D goodluck in trying to figure out. Hahahahs





happy birthday mummy! Didn't buy any present for you. Cause i don't know what to buy for you-.- anyway, stay happy and healthy alright? I <3 you. Oh! P/s : don't shout and nag so much D: will have wrinkles and grow old very fast one :D


i'll be alright, will i? I'll smile and just look forward, isn't it? I'll stop thinking about the times i had with him, can i? I can fulfill all these, right?

i could smile and just walk away. I could heck care all these shit and just move on. I could just take it as nothing had ever happened. Could i?

when i really needed someone to talk to me, few people would be there for me. Girlfs? My dearest 2 girlfs. One would most of the time try to change topic or just say orh. Another would keep telling me forget it. Good friends? Many would try to ignore what i've said. Some would not give any comments. Some others are they're uncontactable at times. Parents? No way. Sister? She'll say she don't understand why i'm this way. So, who can i turn to? Boyf? Please.. I've been cheated twice. Would i be that able to trust guys anymore? I wish i can.. All i need now is just person, someone who can lend me a listening ear, a shoulder to lean on and with comforting comments. Pfft.. Suitable people for suitable stuffs are so difficult to find...


i'll be alright, will i? I'll smile and just look forward, isn't it? I'll stop thinking about the times i had with him, can i? I can fulfill all these, right?

i could smile and just walk away. I could heck care all these shit and just move on. I could just take it as nothing had ever happened. Could i?

when i really needed someone to talk to me, few people would be there for me. Girlfs? My dearest 2 girlfs. One would most of the time try to change topic or just say orh. Another would keep telling me forget it. Good friends? Many would try to ignore what i've said. Some would not give any comments. Some others are they're uncontactable at times. Parents? No way. Sister? She'll say she don't understand why i'm this way. So, who can i turn to? Boyf? Please.. I've been cheated twice. Would i be that able to trust guys anymore? I wish i can.. All i need now is just person, someone who can lend me a listening ear, a shoulder to lean on and with comforting comments. Pfft.. Suitable people for suitable stuffs are so difficult to find...



woots~ like a finally! I can't even remember when was the last time i touched my own lappy D: Anyway, i also don't know what to do anyway:/


"FANG SUA" - this words, hope they'll get me through my days. Cause of that someone. I can't even concentrate on my exam-.-

whatever. Blame who? Nobody asked me to fall for him. Hmm.. Don't no regrets though:/ it's all at the wrong timing and person. Can't blame anyone for falling for the wrong guy, isn't it? (: will be optimistic for now. Hehehes

now on bus with michelle dearest to jp. Then i go meet minghao? That pig! Keep sleeping only! Actually is i cannot take it uhs. Cause i cannot sleep. Hahahahas! Opps:P

screwed my humanities. Nevermind. As long as it doesn't happen for n level(: my humanities exam? I could only remember me sleeping. Last time i always think why people like to sleep during exam. Now i get it~ hahahs!

"UH UH SIOL" - fucking funny please! " how matrep dance? " i think is this title. I can't stop watching it. Okay. Steady, it'll be my cheerup tool. Hahhahs! :D


there's no doubt that i like you. And that's the fact. Why? Someone like you, you feel stress or isit the person who like you is fucking ugly that's why you feel disgusted that someone like that likes you? Well, sorry for invading your world. Guess i've been causing inconvience to your life even when i don't even talk to you at all or contact and it's like we're strangers. Woah~ i didn't know i'm such a BIG influence in your life. So should i feel honoured? Block me? Up to you. Don't worry. Block me or delete me, up to you. I can't control you anyway. Since i'm so hated by you, i guess this is a good choice for you? Congrats for having one less burden. Don't worry. This burden won't be there to disturb your life anymore. She wouldn't even look at you from far away anymore. That burden.. She hoped that at the least, she'll be able to see you from afar. Oh! Guess what? She felt so much for you. She's was worried about how you were when you got injured. She was thinking if you were alright after a small sparing. She was worried if you're okay and if whether you'll be in trouble when you're being outside during midnight. She was afraid that you'll be in trouble. She was always worried for you. The only thing that can make her feel better is your smile. Well, since you've barred her from even seeing what you type, moreover talking bout seeing you, then don't worry. If you'll be happy this way, she's letting go. Even if she can't let go or don't know how to let go or don't know why she cannot let go even when she wants to, she'll psycho herself that she doesn't know you. You're just a stranger. No worries. She'll cope it well even if it means that she'll cry. Fuck her life. She's a dumb fuck.

to another person :
you're good to me. Well, i can see that. Sorry for the rejections. It's fucking "cekarh" but.. Anyway you know why too. But now the reason why i didn't said yes is because, i'm afraid i'll be using you to forget him. No way i'll say yes if i'll do that. I don't play feelings. And don't want to. That's why i said no. And it's also because i'm afraid of breaking your heart. So yahs, sorry. We'll just let nature take course alright? Hehehes. But still thanks for treating me good(: much appreciated. And that's for hearing me whine and complain about that guy which i don't think i should be doing. Well, logically, it doesn't seem right. Yeap, so, thankyou much much(:


i learned that, sometimes, when you commit, doesn't mean you'll get pay back. Sometimes you may get the pay back, but it cost lots of patience, endurerance and self-consoling. It fucking sucks. Fml. Forget it. Who ask me to be so dumb? Congrats lohs. PFFT:/





I know who he likes. I know he likes her a lot. I know because of this, he's hurting. I know all he needs is the girl's concern. I know i'm not even needed in his life. I know i would never stand a chance. I know i'm the only one who's holding on when there's nothing to hold on anymore. I know i'm just one-side loving. I know i have to let go eventually. I know! All this i know!

love hurts is what you've said on fb. Guess what? Congrats. You're just feeling what i'm feeling.


English paper and guess what? I screwed it:/ But think my summary not bad? LOL Pfft.. But what's on my mind isn't these D:





long time no post D: i swear i miss my blog. I'm not gonna change to tumblr. Cause my brain's to dumb for those kind of complications. I prefer this kind of classics. <3 my blog :D anyway, exams just around the corner. No, more of, tomorrow's my mid year exam's first paper - chinese and my english oral. Had a trial oral on monday and i got 8/12. Looks not bad to me. But kinda not enough :/ hope tomorrow i don't get tongue tied. Oh! On friday, i'm gonna get my tongue piercing. And i'll have to be mute for 1 week. Pfft... Not really a good news for ms chatterbox:/

was talking on the phone with minghao. And i know he reads my blog. Wahahahah! :D hello!! ^^ he's a nice guy. Hahahs

meverick, a guy that i know barely 2 weeks, is my new buddy! We have a lot in common. And there's really lots of common stuffs between us both. Maybe because he's a leo too:D aww... I heart my horoscope. The leo itself kinda represent me already. Mu lao hu. Tigress. hahahahs! Imma fierce violent girl(: anyway, he's just my new bud. No other stuffs. He's not my boyf type. Hahahahs. Wah! Fucking evil me.

had been chiong studying. Pfft... Stress. Hope i'll do well for mid year. Don't wanna disappoint my parents because of my result.

alright. Buaybuay for now(:


I keep having this feeling that someone's trying to avoid me? I don't know? pfft.. I mean i know who's trying to avoid me. But i don't want say the name only.. Sorry if i do anything wrong alright? Friendship is super important to me. So if i do anything wrong tell me alright? I don't want to lose a friend without knowing what i've did.


I keep having this feeling that someone's trying to avoid me? I don't know? pfft.. I mean i know who's trying to avoid me. But i don't want say the name only.. Sorry if i do anything wrong alright? Friendship is super important to me. So if i do anything wrong tell me alright? I don't want to lose a friend without knowing what i've did.





ain't my girlfs cute lovelies? Fyi! Taken and unavailabe! :D







it's obvious that you've treat me good. I've heard stuffs about you. Negative stuffs. Still, to me, you're a nice person. But i'm sorry. Friends is all i can take between. I know you'll treat me better than certain someone. Still.. Certain someone.. Is all that i need and want. If i accpet you, that feeling from me to you, ain't gonna be true feelings. I don't want to accept you when i only treat you as a friend. You're a nice person. I don't want to play with your feelings. Sorry

Labels: i still love you..

can you be a better liar? Can you at the least remember what you lied so that you can at least pieng story? Pfft.. I thought at the least you wouldn't lie. Up to you luhs. Fucking disappointed with you.


I love looking at clothing type of pictures, especially shoes♥♥ ! I can go all crazy of shoes :DD Happened to see lots of nice clothings and shoes. Oh! The top most fave shoes i hope i'll have, i'll put a ♥ below it. Actually if i can, i hope to have everything of what i've posted D: hehehehs.. greedy :D

Her first fall - 16 august. Her personality? Straight-forward, hot-tempered, stubborn, uncontrollable, indecisive, selfish, in any case, she's a bad person(: She have two lovely girlfs and a lovely boyf. She heart the three of you ♥♥♥

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Endless satisfications :
High Heel, Charles&Keith Bag, Pierre Cardin Wallet, BlackBerry Phone, New Makeups, Clothes - dress; shorts; shirts; blouse; pants

Pretty please :
Go to marina barrage, go to a chalet soon again, go swimming soon, go to town, spend time at night just like 14.05.2011, movie marathon at someone's house, sleepover outside, enjoy ice-cream treat, drinking, go on a photography tour around, go to the toy museum, picnics, chat all night, bbq party, truth of dare, theme parties.

Currently these are all. Well, hope they'll come true. Expecting for it. But most importantly, i do all these with my lovelies around me(: